Despair of Self Destruction


No Matter Watt: Silver (59 Min.)

Despair and Loneliness Ameliorated with a Benevolent Force and Community

Posco has grown older. and Posco with his once so strong program of abstinence finds himself behind a relapse. Posco is in a Sea of Despair and Loneliness. He has been unable to connect with any type of Synchronicity or Hope. He was set back after much financial and prestigous Success blinded his vision of his true Success. Humility and Dreams ran away. Pride set in. 

Bumdinger has finally stopped relapsing.

Hope has moved on and eventually married Bumdinger. 

Juan Buzzon from Tucson has never truly come back from the trauma of psychosis.

Unruly Julie is now a Counselor.

Annabelle Watt the Hell is quite proud of her daughter and her Son in Law Bumdinger.

“Get up off it” Eddy Crawford is no longer working for Standing and Leaning but still looks for the shortcut.

Walpole Dan is enjoying his time on the street. Still doing what he always did to get what he always got.

Our Lady of Perpetual Disappointment has now begun to honor Shubopdubayhads memory by occaisonally cracking a smile and attempting to see the good in others. She makes herself available to help regardless of her disposition.

My name is Shubopdubayhad and I am a memory. Whenever I can get them to think of me I have permission to mess with them in different ways to let them know I’m around. To let them know there’s something else. I like to do this with Lightbulbs. Like it was done for me. The Lighbulb represents a Compendium of Positive Spiritual Principles. The Power is measured in Watts. Getting thru our Know Matter Watts can strengthen us if we let it. More importantly the lessons can be shared with others in community can provide necessary desired Hope for others… No Matter Watt. 


Song list * Not in this order

  1. Lonely (4) X – Center
  2. Superman (4)
  3. “Off the Table” (ALL)
  4. Coincidences 
  5. Love yourself (ALL)
  6. Dreams Run Away (ALL) 
  7. When I think of you (4)
  8. Kiss 2 plus (ALL)
  9. Secrets (ALL) 
  10. All that matters (ALL) 
  11. I did it again I surrender 1 plus (ALL)
  12. Shubopdubayhad 
  13. Possible 2 plus (ALL)
  14. Keep Coming Back (ALL)
  15. Watt about the Kids ( Empty Nester Version) 2
  16. No Matter Watt (ALL) *FINAL